Thursday, December 4, 2008

After Thanksgiving

I ended up sick after Thanksgiving with a sinus infection and bronchitis which makes it very hard to fit in a walk when you can't breathe.
I have been very bad about eating poptarts and other things that I really don't need. I am not sure why except, I just do. However, I do make good choices of foods on an irregular basis which is better than never making good food choices . I think a lot of the problem is, I am not here to fix a decent meal. I am running all the time it seems.

I am praying for Christmas break when I hope we do not have to continue the running for a few days. I am looking forward to only swim team this summer.

I learned something about myself recently. I do not know how to just relax. I feel like I have to be doing something all the time. Whether it is picking up around the house or working on things at work. I can't not be busy. If that makes sense.

I need to work on this. My Sundays have flown out the window now too and so therefore I have no time to relax. Boyd does his on the computer and just blocks us all out. I can't. They won't let me.

I am constantly pulled from all sides. I wish I could use the energy I have for me.

Monday, November 24, 2008

I can do this

I can do this. I can do this. And what is this. I can stay away from Candy, Cake, Cookies, and Chips. I know I can and I will. This is my mantra this week. I will also cut down my peanut butter intake. Three heaping tablespoons in one day is not good. One every couple of days of every few days is not a problem. Today is a new adventure in leading a healthful eating lifestyle. Of course last week was too. I will continue to go for walks each day. I would really like to go and work out at the fitness center here in town, but I need at least an hour which I never seem to have and if I do, I just want to veg.

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Sunday weigh in

I lost .4 pounds! O.k. I know that is not a lot, but it was a loss!
I walked in a 5K run/walk yesterday which has left me sore, but it felt good to exercise instead of just hanging at home doing work and running kids all over the place.

My plan this week is to continue no cake, cookies, or candy. Then add chips. No cake, cookies, candy or chips for 10 days.
I am also going to try and find time to step up my exercise a bit. I really need to do more than just 15 - 30 minutes of stroll a day.

My plan for Thanksgiving is to stay light. Nibble of healthy things and stay away from the donuts that I have already been warned about. cripes! Just what I need!
I will be sure to have something that I like there to replace those.

During the meal I will fill up on vegetables and eat just enough to be comfortable. I know what will be said, but I need to do this. I want to have a loss next Sunday also. I can do it. I know I can. I just hate the pressure. I am under enough pressure without everyone pushing me to eat more all the time.

Thursday, November 20, 2008

It's Thursday day 7

I have stayed away from the three C's Cookies, Cakes and Candy. Not that it has not been tempting. But so far I have made it 6 days. Today is day 7 of 10 with out. I am finding that I have to do the all or none or I just don't stop. Thanksgiving is next week and I know that I will have pie. I am going to will myself to have just one slice instead of half the pie. I was going to make my favorite Snickers Pie. But it contains 5 Snickers bars! I will not make the pie this year. There are not many ways to lighten that one up!

I have started eating these pretzels at work.. Hanover Honey mustard onion pretzel peices. Oh my they are good. I need to stop that! One bag is 340 calories and 14 grams of fat! Yikes!
I think today I will try eating carrots with honey mustard fat free dressing. That should do it.

Starting next week, no chips or pretzels unless it is the WW pretzels. Or the 100 calorie packs and then not everyday.

Here we go! I will see how I do over the next few days.

After tonight I might be able to start fitting in a workout. Our last dog training and graduation is tonight!

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

Yeah ME!

At work yesterday there were two, count them two cakes for a birthday. I HAD NONE!!!! I did not go back and didn't even feel bad that I had not sampled. Then at lunch, a very nice employee was offering us all homemade cinnamon rolls.. ugh... I bypassed them. YEAH ME!!!

Now if I could just bypass the chips like the flavored pretzels and the carmel corn!

I am so proud that I bypassed those hurdles at work yesterday. I was a bit grouchy yesterday too. I think it is because the kids called and were screeching at each other in my ear. I hung up on them! ha ha

Then the rest of the night was that way. eveyone grumpy. So the kids went to bed before 8:30.

Today is a new day to do it again. I need to be strong willed and move forward. I need to pep talk myself each day. I do not need those items to survive. They are only the little extras that should be just that, a little extra from time to time.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Weigh in today

I weighed in today at Weight Watchers. I knew I was upon weight because I have gotten out of the habit of recording everything I eat. So to I resolved to write it all down. OF course I have tio that in between taking care of the dogs, getting the kids moving on some stuff, paying bills, and getting other things done before 2:00 when I take Max to lessons and then at 4 we have portraits being taken. I had hoped I was still down on weight, but not. I just need to do it!

After the weigh in and meeting, I went to the park and did a brisk walk for 30 minutes and then cleaned all the trash out of my van. I stopped for a skinny vanilla latte for my breakfast and headed home. I get here and my DH (Dear Husband) lets me know that there is a lot to do. Well, duh. I know that and he has a mouth and can tell the kids what needs to be done too, but he won't.

Anyway, I am resolving to make it my 7 more days with no candy, cookies, or cake. I should probably add pizza to that list too. And maybe crackers too... ha ha ha

Tune in next time for how I am doing

Saturday, November 15, 2008

Was doing good

I did pretty good until today! Yikes I had pad thai noodles for lunch at Noodles and company and then had pizza with the kids for supper and to make matters worse, my dear hubby brought me a Cadbury Royal Dark Dark chocolate bar! argh!!!!! I love dark chocolate. I made a deal, no candy, cookies, or cake for 10 days. It has been 3 days? I think. Well, I better go and fold clothes.

Friday, November 14, 2008

Revisiting why I am trying to lose weight

What are my reasons to lose weight?

1. so that I can live longer to see my children grow up and have families of their own.

2. So that I can feel better. ex. feel more rested and feel like I have more energy

3. So that my clothes no longer feel tight.

4. So that I look better and don't hate the sight of a camera.

5. So that I don't end up like others in my family with joints hurting all the time.

What am I going to do about it?

1. This next 10 days, I am giving up all candy and cookies and cake.

Now to begin!

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Well, I blew it again

I am finding weight loss as hard of a challenge as giving of smoking. I know I can do this and I will not die if I do. Today I started my day witha honey nut cheerios cereal bar.

I plan to do some exercises today that do not bother my ankle that I twisted on Sunday. I am also going to have my group of kiddos help clean up the house. It looks horrible. Very lived in.

For morning snack I plan on having a banana.

For lunch, a salad.

For dinner I am making something that requires hamburger since that is what I have and the kids are tired of chicken and pork. Thanks to daddy and his amazing smoker/grill. His favorite food.

Saturday, November 8, 2008

A day down and didn't do so well

I didn't do like I should today. I was so busy with running and doing laundry and taking care of everyone that I just grabbed what I could on the run. I need to drink a lot more water. I think I need another good night's sleep as well. Tomorrow I will try again to be more conscious of what I put in my body. I need to get back to when I felt good inside and out.

Friday, November 7, 2008

Why I set up this blog

I set up this blog to help explain and go through my weight loss challenge.

Over a year ago I was diagnosed with impaired glucose. I went on a strict carb diet supplied to me by a diabetic educator/nutritionist. It worked like a charm. I was down from 210 to 170. I was feeling great. I exercised regularly and ate very well. I was hungry from time to time but o.k. Theone thing that has stuck with me is that I am no longer a fan of donuts. What I have not been able to rid myself of is other goodies. I seem to not be able to monitor myself to eat things in moderation. I binge instead. I started weight watchers. I know what to do how to do it and I know I can do it. But why don't I. That is the question. What am I so afraid of.. When I married almost 20 years ago I was a whole 108 pounds and would freak if I got up to 120. Now here I am. I am hoping by posting on here that I will be able to lose the weight I need to be healthy and see all my children grow up, go to college and become what they want to be to be happy. Here is a somewhat current picture for me to look at and realize I need to lose.